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I Quit Sugar Week 7 : Sugar’s back!

Sugar Free Cakes

So I’ve been adding sugar back to my diet slowly but gleefully after a few weeks of not having any sugar at all.

The plan is that I’m supposed to add some low-sugar fruits first, but I’ve just been eating sugar as they pop up in my life.

For example, today I went out for Thai food with my coworkers. And now I can really taste the sugar in the yellow curry sauce. Before I would have been surprised if you told me that Thai curry sauces were sweetened, but after a few weeks of very limited sugar I can actually taste its sweetness.

Because it was part of our set menu, I had a blackberry-juice-based sparkler at dinner last week.

And tomorrow I will eat a slice of cake to celebrate a birthday.


I don’t know if its just coincidence, but a few hours after I drank the sugary juice drink last week I had a slight buzzy headache. And today after I ate the sugar-laden Thai curry, I got the same kind of headache in the afternoon. I guess I’ll find out tomorrow after the birthday cake if sugar really gives me headaches.

Meanwhile, my huge box of chocolate bars from Frusano arrived! Frusano is the only company offering chocolates sweetened with dextrose. The chocolates taste silky smooth, almost normal.

If you don’t live in Germany and find international shipping prohibitively expensive, I found a recipe to make Chocolate Toffee Drops with dextrose from Sugar is Poison:


Sugar Free Dextrose Chocolate

125 g solidified coconut oil
3/4 cup dextrose
6 T cocoa
4 T full cream milk powder
a pinch of salt

Melt 125g of solidified coconut oil in a saucepan over medium heat. Dissolve 3/4 cup dextrose in some water on the stove and then add the coconut oil. Sift the 6 tablespoons cocoa, 4 tablespoons full cream milk powder and a pinch of salt together, and then add to the liquid. Spoon into moulds, a tin or just spread it out on a piece of foil and refrigerate till set.

Thank you if you’re reading this. Thank you if you’ve been on the journey with me. It’s you who keep me honest…just two more weeks! And then back to chocolates and cakes!

Photo sources from top to bottom: Ann Mah, Australia Entertains, and Sugar is Poison

I Quit Sugar Week 6 : Time to add sugar back to my diet?


After six weeks of quitting sugar, of which four weeks were cold turkey–that means, no honey, no stevia, no fruit, Sarah Wilson‘s program allows for adding fruit back in.

But I don’t feel ready yet for sugar. The idea of quitting sugar cold turkey is to get the addiction to the sweet fix out of my system, but I’ve lapsed a few times during my four weeks. Two times I did so consciously, but two other times…well, let me just tell you that it is dangerous to have a box of chocolates from out-of-town guests just standing around innocently in my living room. And ever since I lapsed and had a chocolate, I’ve been back to craving chocolate every night : chocolate bonbons, cake, mousse, hot cacao.

It’s funny, because in Sarah’s experience she was ‘repulsed by the taste [of sugar]…it seemed so acidic and cloying’. As for me, sugar in the form of dark chocolate still rocks my world. So I ordered more than 60 euros’ worth of 100% glucose chocolates from Frusano. It’s the only recommended sugar, because it contains no fructose. I can’t wait until my box arrives…

If you’re also on the journey of quitting sugar, how are you dealing with sugar addiction or withdrawal? How do you know when you’re over it? Do share your tips with me!

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Illustration from Lucileskitchen

I Quit Sugar Week 4 : Why We Broke Up

So I quit sugar 100% last week. Walking away hasn’t been easy.

Sarah Wilson’s handbook is full of tricks and tips to make the process easier, but to help me through the next five weeks of absolutely no sugar whatsoever, I connected to the big and deep reason why I’m quitting sugar. To break a habit or an addiction, keep the end in sight. So in the video below, I share my reason, my big why, for quitting sugar.

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ACTION STEP : If you’re quitting sugar too, figure out why you’re doing it–and remind yourself of it when the going gets tough. It can be a video that you can play again and again for yourself or a small note you write to yourself to carry around with you in your wallet. Do what works for you!



I Quit Sugar Week 3 : Breaking Up with Sugar

Breaking Up with Sugar


Dear Sugar,

I’m terribly sorry I had to do this through a letter. Our relationship has run its course. Don’t let it get you all upset inside; we are just not a good match.

Thanks for the years of happiness you gave me. We had a great run together, didn’t we? The birthday cakes, the Halloween candy, the chocolates on Valentines from my childhood–all happy memories. When I grew older and moved to Paris, you beckoned from pastries made by masters of sugar and deliciousness. I had a sugary snack almost every afternoon in Paris since nothing else was open other than bakeries between lunch and dinner. In Paris, you were beautiful, lit up like a jewel behind glass windows.

But it’s not working anymore for me. I expect too much of you. I’m depending too much on you to cheer me up when I’m sad or blue or just down. In these past two weeks when I’ve tried living my life without you, it’s been hard. And those times when I invited you back into my life, you still have a way of touching me deeply in my sweet spot.

But I need to outgrow you: for all the highs we have together, you also give me the lows. I always have to run back into your arms again to feel back on top. I depend on you to make me happy, and I need to find out how to do that for myself. Before I tried taking a break with you, I wouldn’t be able to walk by the chocolate aisle in the grocery store without picking you up so that you–my secret weapons–will be waiting in my bag no matter what else happens for the day. (Yes, I love you most when you’re combined with dark chocolate.)

Frankly, even though emotionally you make me feel great, you don’t do much for me physically. You turn immediately into stored fat. You’re chemically addictive. I don’t want to go down the list again of why you’re no good for me, even though the last time I forgot one more evil thing about you: the history of your cultivation goes hand in hand with the story of the evils of colonialism.

Look, I’m not saying that I want to break up with you forever. It’s not like I’ve been cheating on you or want to replace you with anyone. I don’t want to have a chemical relationship with any other substance, even though caffeine could rival your importance in my life. After the next six weeks, I’m pretty sure I want you back in my life again though probably not as my bestie like you are now. I just need a complete break to break my dependence on you so that I can be in control of my life again.

After our six weeks’ separation, I’d like to be in control. I’d like to moderate the highs and lows you give me. I’d like to feel my down feelings rather than smother them with your sweetness. Before I used to think that you were a treat for myself, as a way of taking care of and treating myself. But I see you now for what you are: you make things better like a shiny bow wrapped around a trash pile, but you don’t address the underlying problems. When I’m tired I will just take a nap. When I’m blue I will talk to a friend about it rather than turning to you.

I know that it’s going to be hard not turning to you in the next six weeks, but I’m doing this for myself—so that I can be free and autonomous, fully in control of my own body and mind. It would be great if you understood, sugar, that it’s not you; it’s me. Really.



PS: Sugar honey, give me back my keys. I’m sure we’ll see each other again, if you’re ok with it, but I have to be the one who decides when and where and how.

PPS: In case you’re new around here, I quit sugar two weeks ago.

I am following Sarah Wilson‘s 8-week sugar quitting program, as outlined in her $15 handbook.

If you buy the handbook by clicking on this link, THANK YOU! I get a commission, but the price is the same no matter where you buy it. Once you make your purchase through my link, please contact me with your order receipt, and I’ll send you my bonus PDF detailing where to get some of the supplies in Germany and in the US that Sarah Wilson recommends on her Australian-based shopping list.


Photo from buzzfeed

I Quit Sugar : Progress Notes from Week 2


Thank you, dear readers, for keeping me on track with quitting sugar for eight weeks. When I feel totally alone in quitting sugar, I just think of you on the other side of the screen and how I have to report back about my weekly progress.

Quitting Sugar : Success Story from cutting back

First, a success story before I tell you about my cake attack breakdown. So the first week was to cut down on sugar, which for me meant drinking espresso black or with plain milk. Surprise! I wanted to drink fewer espressos throughout the day once they weren’t so tasty anymore. But for the entire week I stuck to this, about which I’m happy.

Cake Attack : Lessons Learned from cutting back on sugar

Going into quitting sugar, I knew that sugary snacks were ways I’d pick myself up after a long, tiring day. So yesterday I had a long, tiring day, and I just had to have something junky in my system. Now that I can’t eat cookies or cakes, I decided to buy some chips because those salty suckers must not have sugar, right? Guess what? Every single package of chips whose ingredients I read had sugar. Or else lactose or dextrose or another sugar. Who knew that to make paprika, salt & vinegar, sour cream & onion, ‘Mexican’ flavors, you need sugar?!

In any case, I went home disappointed without a snack to treat myself, thinking that not eating sugar means not eating any junk food–treats–at all. This was perhaps my mistake.


A few hours later at home, my crazy monkey mind and will power just got tired of resisting–did you know that will power really is like a muscle? When your will power gets tired from being tested too much, at the end of the day, you just give in. As proof of that last night I polished off a jar of chocolate brownie cake (see photo above) that I had bought from Emma at the dessert market / Naschmarkt in late December that was standing around in my kitchen.

So instead of eating a jar of cake with a spoon like it was Ben and Jerry’s, what I should have done is anticipated my impeding lack of willpower and bought a substitute treat like full-fat yogurt with cacao nibs at the store. No judgments, however. I really needed a pick-me-up last night, so I gave myself what was convenient. Compassion leads to sustainable changes.

From week one of quitting sugar, I learned that I need to have alternative treats around so that I don’t just treat myself with cakes and cookies. In fact, I may need to have two treats–one food treat and one non-food treat so that I can start thinking of food as fuel for my body and not as ways of being nice to myself.

How do you treat yourself well in ways that are not related in food but is accessible at any time and / or portable ?

Let me know in the comments section!

And for week two of quitting sugar I’ll be eating more fat and protein so that I feel full rather than deprived. For breakfast I eat one or two hard-boiled eggs with salt and pepper instead of my usual fruit smoothies. In fact, I’ll be trying to eat fat and protein with every meal.

If you want to join me, you can read my progress notes from week 1, follow along by buying for $15 Sarah Wilson’s how-to manual on quitting sugar, or read Sarah Wilson’s blog about her Quitting Sugar program.

Edited to say: Those of you who bought Sarah Wilson’s quitting sugar manual by clicking my link (you get the same price, and I get a commission from her), THANK YOU! I had promised that I’d share with you where I buy in Germany and the US the supplies Sarah Wilson recommends in her quitting sugar shopping list, since Sarah is based in Australia.

Since this is my first time working as an affiliate, I didn’t realize when I made that promise that I don’t get a list of people who bought through my link. So if you want my German and/or American version of the quitting sugar shopping list, please contact me with your order receipt. Sorry for the extra trouble! But it may be worth it: having a shopping list has helped me stay focused at the grocery store!

First photo from Michele Amato; second photo Südwind-Shop